Do I have anything to worry about here? No, not at all.
I think it is all lessons for me to accept him as he is, to accept the situation as it is, to let go of control, to love unconditionally.
I know he loves me – he may not say it often, may not show it much, but he does and he cares a lot too. He is very sweet and some of his actions or lack there of I mistakenly took the wrong way and did not just accept him. I judged, labelled and got worried, insecure, made up stories, let them get away with themselves and could not believe he loved me. Everything he did do that showed me he loved me I ignored, I only saw what he didn’t do, I only looked for ways he showed he didn’t care. I looked for the dirt in other words and found it, of course.
Possibly back then I couldn’t believe I was loveable, was loved, worthy or deserving. Now I am looking for proof against what I believe.
I am just going to let him be – and be secure in myself, to just get on with things, to love and accept him and the situation just the way they are. Yeah sure I was feeling and probably still will from time to time, that it is unfair, that I feel that I am being punished I still have the kids at home so that means I cannot be with him. That he doesn’t want to be with me until I am independent of the kids, which sucks.
For now I just got to let go of all control, attachment of outcome, let go of fear, worry, anxiety, stress and just allow things to unfold.
He loves me regardless if I hear from him or not.
He loves me regardless whether I see him or not.
He loves me and wants to be with me.
Message from above – Be secure in youeself – knowing that whatever happens you am ok, be in the present moment, love yourself, create the life you want and not judge actions or non-actions.
Be secure in the knowledge he loves me and cares for you.
Do not read into things – action, non-action whether you hear from him or not – it does not mean anything- stop attaching meaning to things, learn to fulfill your own needs. Not wanting someone to listen to the events of your day, fill your own cup, in all ways, love fully regardless, it’s about finding and loving yourself, now. Remember he is a reflection of you and not only that, the two of you are so much alike, you don’t like a lot of contact, neither does he, he enjoys his own company, so do you, remember what he shows you is you and what you show him is him.
Trust
Wow – it is a lesson on trust.
Trusting love, trusting intuition, trusting him.
Trusting self, trusting in the universe, trust.
Robyn Lemsing
2nd April 2019